29 Nov 2017
23 May 2018
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You know, Ocean, you are way stronger than I am. When you first started to mention that you had a slip, and then got back on the bandwagon again right away, I thought, wow. How did she do it? Because I know for me, if I have one cigarette, no, make that one puff of one cigarette, I will be right back to the drawing board. I know that in my heart. I know that I have to live by NOPE, Not One Puff Ever, or I am doomed.
I remember at one point in my quit, I was coming home from doing groceries. The wind was really strong against me, and I started huffing and puffing. And just when I took a really deep breath, a man coming towards me exhaled from his cigarette, and I inhaled the whole thing before I could stop myself. And I went into a complete panic, wondering if my quit had just been blown. Thankfully, I guess because I didn't actually take a drag myself, I was fine. But it terrified me, it really did.
So you are absolutely right. You have to stop this slip in its tracks now, or you will be right back where you started. And you deserve so much better than that. Smoking is a horrible addiction, and it will do anything to keep us in its grip. Fight back, and be the winner of this battle. I am rooting for you.