mina
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17 May 2018
26 May 2018
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Thank you everyone for your encouragement. You have no idea how much it helps me. Today is 46 days for me. That's 6 weeks 4 days! Wow! Time is actually going pretty fast now that I look back at it. This is the first time I have ever tried to quit in the spring. All my other quits were in the fall, and time just dragged on. I must say, quitting in the spring is much easier in that aspect of it. Weather and time of year definitely plays a part in the quitting for me.
The dizziness, nausea and headaches continue on, so I have made a doctor appointment.
Thoughts about smoking are getting fewer and further between, and having fewer cravings too! I'm thankful for that. Having fewer bad days. Still using the nic gum. Just bought more yesterday, but hard to find my kind. I wish they wouldn't keep trying to "improve" it and change the ingredients in it, because I am sensitive to some of the ingredients in some of the nic gums. I'm hoping to get off of it after this package.
Today is one of my bad days. I am really very sorry that I ever started smoking. I am feeling very emotional, want to cry, very tired, lonely, lazy, dizzy, headache, nausea, and just plain miserable. I know that "this too will pass" but it sure is taking its time today. I must remember, I did this to myself, and the uncomfortable feelings I'm having today are the result of my poor choice to smoke. My perseverance WILL pay off, I know it! I keep telling myself "this is only temporary and it won't last forever." I just have to ride this out. I actually don't even have the desire, want, or even thought to smoke - I'm too sick!
After 3 decades of smoking (with a few quits in there) you'd think I could do this without being so whiny......but of course, each quit is different. This one WILL be the last - not going through this again - I'm determined. I don't feel like giving up or giving in, that's not it at all, I'm just
tired of feeling so yucky - and today is one of the worst yucky feeling days for me. I have had many yucky days since quitting smoking, but today is definitely taking the cake! Whoa! Maybe this is the storm before the rainbow for me! I sure hope so! And so I press on.
I read a good quote today....
"The battle
of life is, in most cases, fought uphill; and to win it without a struggle were
perhaps to win it without honor. If there were no difficulties there would be
no success; if there were nothing to struggle for, there would be nothing to be
achieved."
-Samuel Smiles
Sorry for being so long-winded, but thank you for listening and have a wonderful smoke free day everyone.
Mina