justfortoday
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12 Aug 2019
28 Aug 2019
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Before my quit day (Sunday August 25), I had read a lot of
posts here and some thoughts I harbored are as follows:
- Why are these people making this sound so hard?
- Isn’t it a simple matter of getting the nicotine
out of your system (a few days to a couple of weeks)?
- Come on people! Just think positive! Tell
yourself, I’m a non-smoker, and the craving is my simple addiction to nicotine
and has nothing to do with my thoughts!
- Buck up, for crying out loud!
- Clearly, I’m far stronger than anyone as I don’t
anticipate any hardships with my quit.
Last night I found myself curled under a blanket on my Lazy-Boy
chair watching re-runs of Seinfeld while tears ran down my cheeks and truly believing
the rest of my life was going to be one big miserable waste of time if I didn’t
smoke!!! And even as my husband rubbed my back trying to comfort me, I wanted
to chew his arm off up to the elbow!
YOU, all of YOU have endured this and yet I was too arrogant
to believe it could happen to me. You, all of YOU have reached out and supported
each other and I there I was, Miss Smarty Pants, thinking I didn’t need support
…
So Please, forgive my arrogance and my ignorance. I need all
of you. I need to hear your struggles and your successes. I need a community
wherein there is no shame in hiding under a blanket watching Seinfeld and
feeling totally sorry for myself. AND, I need a community that celebrates when
we overcome the hurdles of this horrific physical and mental addiction.
And by the way … I did not smoke, and I did not chew off my husband’s
arm.
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