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1. mina

   

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   17 May 2018
   26 May 2018

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   Thank you everyone for your encouragement.  You have no idea how much it helps me. Today is 46 days for me.  That's  6 weeks 4 days!  Wow!  Time is actually going pretty fast now that I look back at it.  This is the first time I have ever tried to quit in the spring.  All my other quits were in the fall, and time just dragged on.  I must say, quitting in the spring is much easier in that aspect of it.  Weather and time of year definitely plays a part in the quitting for me. 
   
   The dizziness, nausea and headaches continue on, so I have made a doctor appointment. 
   
   Thoughts about smoking are getting fewer and further between, and having fewer cravings too!  I'm thankful for that.  Having fewer bad days.  Still using the nic gum.  Just bought more yesterday, but hard to find my kind.  I wish they wouldn't keep trying to "improve" it and change the ingredients in it, because I am sensitive to some of the ingredients in some of the nic gums.  I'm hoping to get off of it after this package.  
   
   Today is one of my bad days.  I am really very sorry that I ever started smoking.  I am feeling very emotional, want to cry, very tired, lonely, lazy, dizzy, headache, nausea, and just plain miserable.  I know that "this too will pass" but it sure is taking its time today.  I must remember, I did this to myself, and the uncomfortable feelings I'm having today are the result of my poor choice to smoke.  My perseverance WILL pay off, I know it!  I keep telling myself "this is only temporary and it won't last forever." I just have to ride this out. I actually don't even have the desire, want, or even thought to smoke - I'm too sick! 
   
   After 3 decades of smoking (with a few quits in there) you'd think I could do this without being so whiny......but of course, each quit is different.  This one WILL be the last - not going through this again - I'm determined.  I don't feel like giving up or giving in, that's not it at all, I'm just
   tired of feeling so yucky - and today is one of the worst yucky feeling days for me. I have had many yucky days since quitting smoking, but today is definitely taking the cake!  Whoa!  Maybe this is the storm before the rainbow for me!  I sure hope so!  And so I press on.  
   
   I read a good quote today....
   
   "The battle of life is, in most cases, fought uphill; and to win it without a struggle were perhaps to win it without honor. If there were no difficulties there would be no success; if there were nothing to struggle for, there would be nothing to be achieved."
                                                                                               -Samuel Smiles 
   
   Sorry for being so long-winded, but thank you for listening and have a wonderful smoke free day everyone.
   
   Mina 
   
   
   
   
   
      
   
2. treepeo

   

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   29 Nov 2017
   26 May 2018

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   Hi Mina,
   
   First, let me congratulate you on your 46 days smoke free.  That is a wonderful accomplishment, and you should be really proud of yourself.
   
   Sorry to hear that you are having such a bad day.  I know what it's like, having had many myself.  I remember that at the end of my first month, I started to cry, and couldn't stop.  I had to take two days off work, because I just kept bursting into tears.  Thankfully, after that episode, things got a lot better for me.
   
   I am convinced that our addiction makes us feel lousy to tempt us to go back to smoking.  But at some point, it realizes we are stronger than it is, and it gives up.  And then the sun starts to shine, so to speak.
   
   Hang in there, Mina.  Your symptoms will go away soon, and then you will be free.  And post here as often as you want, and make your posts as long as you want.  This is the perfect place to vent, because we are all going through the same things, and we can all relate.
   
   And maybe try doing something nice for yourself to give yourself a boost.  I bought myself flowers the other day, and as I write this, I can smell their perfume.  And they are beautiful.  I think you deserve a nice, cheery bouquet!
   
3. ocean

   

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   26 May 2018

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   Hi Mina,
   I'm sorry to hear that you're having a difficult day.  I know from experience how long they can feel, and without smoking our sense of time can warp our perception of time moving forward.  I think it's perhaps the dopamine and other pleasure chemicals that are out of balance for a while, and they certainly mess with the passage of time.  I know it all gets better, though, and I'm living proof.  It took me quite a while to recognize that I was over the hump and it happened quite soon at around 90 days in.  The good news is like you said, there were many good days leading up to it.  So really enjoy those good days when they happen to reward yourself.  I ate chocolates, as the taste lingered in my mouth and is incompatible with smoking.  I'm working the weight off now, I haven't gained any since 3 months, and I've lost one or two since.
   
   It's interesting how you describe the weather affecting your quit.  I quit in January and it did seem long.  And when I had energy, it was still too icy to do outdoor activities like walking or bike riding.  On the other hand, I was relapsing last week after 4 months because I got a bit carried away with spontaneity and slipping.  I smoked every day for a week.  I'm cold turkey again, and checking in here where my supports are.  We're all here for you, Mina.  It will pass, it really will.
4. brieffree

   

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   27 May 2018

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   Hi Mina
   
   my Brave Warrior, stay strong and focus, I know you can do it, you have 45 smoke free day's is incredible, be nice to yourself, focus in something wile the you are feeling crave and it will be easy after few min.
   Is not only You who feel that, Me too, after I quit for a wile, I did not have a good day neither; Yesterday my pressure spike and feel like my hear was stopping. How ever I continue. 
   This Wage of Heating and Humidity is playing tricks with me.
   
   We can do it, hang in there, it will not be forever!
   
5. eagerquit

   

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   27 May 2018

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   Hi Mina,
   
   Congratulations on 45 smoke free days! Consulting with your doctor about the withdrawal symptoms as your quit progresses can be very helpful. I too have my good days and my bad days, but most of them are good as long as I stay calm and peaceful. Time heals all wounds!
   
   I wish you continued success in your quit.
   
   Eagerquit
   
   
6. marianne, quit coach

   

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   27 May 2018

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   Hello Mina,
   
   Congratulations to you on your 46+ days of being smoke-free!  Hope you had some support with the doctor after your bad day.  Those days can happen as others can attest to.  Your positive self-talk is certainly making a difference and seeing you through on these challenging days.  
   
   Keep reminding yourself of your strength and determination.  The quote you shared says it so well, success does not come without difficulties.  That is why celebrating your achievement means so much as you know it didn't come easy.  
   
   Best wishes as you continue to reach your next milestone.  We look forward to hearing more from you.  
   
   Marianne