21 Nov 2019
21 Nov 2019
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My quit date is set for tomorrow.
I'm pregnant, 26 and eagerly want to quit for the health of myself and baby
I have double depression, anxiety and cptsd, which are managed very well as I've gone to therapy and taken the medications necessary. I'm proud I've come that far, but now I feel what's left to my healing journey is to beat this awful addiction.
I'm tired of waking up each morning with a sore throat, phlegm and always reaching for the cigarette pack right upon waking up. I used to wait to have my coffee made before having a smoke, but somehow I stopped that habit, thankfully, and don't get triggered (as much) from drinking coffee.
I'm tired of seeing my grocery bills decrease because I would never budget for cigarettes as I always plan to quit. It's awful, but I'm really just done with this addiction. I don't want my child to have health issues, I want the absolute best for baby and especially now that I'm expecting my first child, it's more of a motivation to quit, I just need to find a really good way to quit and I still haven't yet.
I'm hoping this website can help, and these forums can help. I'm hoping that the stressors in life can subside for a while just to get me through the first few days at least (somehow I have the bad luck charm, and a lot of life challenges get thrown to me so often, it makes it so much more difficult to quit smoking).
Ive been smoking since I was 19, so 7 years now, and I'm smoking 20 cigarettes a day. I don't want to smoke anymore, I just want to get better and give my life and baby and even my partner, a better life by kicking his addictions butt.
I did well with decreasing my nicotine amount with a vape in the past, but since the news had shown many kids and adults being hospitalized from vaping, even for a short while, I decided to stop and throw that out. I've tried nicotine replacement aids in the past, and I don't think I try doing that during my pregnancy. I've spoken to my doctor about anything I could do or take during pregnancy to quit but she said there was nothing but trying to quit cold turkey.
Quitting cold turkey is very difficult for me. My withdrawal symptoms are awful. I become extremely irritable that I lash out at anything my partner does, even if it's not reasonable. Sometimes I become very sickly, and feel as if my body is about to shut down or I get almost like a flu where I sweat, my body aches and I feel nauseous. It's horrid so I feel as if I'm at a brick wall for options at this point, but I desperately want to quit before baby arrives. And at this time, I need to quit to help save more money for baby supplies.
Anyone else around thats pregnant and need someone to use as a distraction? If so, maybe we can text each other? It would be greatly appreciated.
Looking back, the best way for me to get it off my mind is to talk to someone for a while. Being around non smokers and doing things or talking, is really the best thing that I can recall from previous attempts or situations where I was hiding the addiction from extended family members. I need more advice and help from people. There's not a single bit of support from family, but I do have my non smoking partner that's very supportive.