29 Nov 2017
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I so understand what you went through. Alcohol is a trigger for lots of us. There is nothing like a drink and a smoke! Or is there?
This may sound dumb, but when I first quit, I had a carton of cigs at home, with my pack right in front of me where I could see it. I decided that I would put all of my temptations in front of me right off the bat, so that if I slipped, it wouldn't be too far into my quit. So there were my smokes. I also drank alcohol and coffee. Yeah, the pull was there. But surprising for me, my greatest pull was food. I wanted a cig after every meal, even if it was just a little snack. I had no idea that would be the hardest trigger to fight against.
We are all different, Sunny, and yet the same. I am glad you are giving yourself a break. Quitting is not easy, and it is definitely a learning process. You still want to quit, and that is the main thing. You will get there, of that I have no doubt.
You are stronger than your addiction, Sunny. You can kick butt. Just grit your teeth and tell yourself you are not going to cave. Do something amazing for yourself! You are sooo worth it!