23 Jan 2018
09 Feb 2019
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Good evening heab,
Aww, I am sorry to read about your difficulties ~ I couldn't begin to imagine what that's like for you.
When I made my final decision to quit smoking, I called that process - practice. I'd practice not smoking and for me it helped A LOT. Felt like a whole lot of pressure taken off. Oh, I was committed to not smoking but I guess linguistics helped.
Don't underestimate quits... I'd venture to say that as smokers, every time we quit, we are serious.
I was a smoker for 30+ yrs.. I never thought so much about smoking as much as those first months... And so, I sometimes had to say out loud, even as a whisper that 'cravings don't last long, this will go away' and take the day second by second.. minute by minute.
I remember still (feels kinda dark and fuzzy little bit) what day & night before my quit day I felt like and I'm sure I did smoke a crap load that day. I also remember feeling anxious and nervous as well. But this time, something inside felt different.
I started my quit process and my body revolted big time... it cried for that familiar cloud of polutted air. I got super sick for first month a bit, my body recuperating from winning the battle. Finally when I was up and going again, it helped knowing nicotine is out of my body and now, the battle was me against me - no one else.
My quit journey has challenged me in ways I thought I was too lazy to fight for... You never know when that motivation or inspiration comes, so, you're doing the right thing by not quitting to try.
Keep coming back and reading and sharing what your days been like.. It's comforting knowing we're not alone