23 Jan 2018
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I feel your pain and your want to quit.
When I initially made the decision to quit, and to seriously commit this time, I had to change how I thought about being a non smoker. At first my thought was "I'm quitting forever " big boo boo. That thought was overwhelming for me, so again, practicing process in changing that by breaking down in smaller times...for example, waiting until I've had my 2 cup of morning coffee. . .just to see if I can quit.
I was such a chronic long time smoker, with an addictive personality I knew I'd need serious help - I started off small. Dr had me try patch n nicotine gum. I smoked my way through the headaches and nausea - that didn't work! Next, I tried Wellbutrin, and that was working mostly. The taste was awful and I couldn't finish a whole smoke <<< addictive personality! Wellbutrin mostly took away the physical cravings, but psychologically I still craved. Timid and cautious me and Dr tried me on Champix. But I'll be damned - first time in my life I coming to know what life is like without being centred around that smoke. By all means, it's not easy...I've built friendship around smoking and even my partner smokes. It's quite challenging!
I have 13 days of being a non smoker, and I still have to remain in the now. I still have to think and remind myself of...
1-the craving doesn't last long and I can wait 2 mins, get up and wipe the table
2-the cigarette doesn't taste pleasurable or do anything for me anymore
3- I don't want to get as sick I was
4-I have 13 days, and they have been challenging for me, I've had ups and downs...I don't want to have to start the count again.
The struggle is real, no matter method of efforts...I have found a way to stay quit, and even though there are plenty of choices and ways to quit, it can still be super hard! I am still making a conscience choice to not smoke - even on Champix.
I hope you can find a way that works for you Margie! Lots of different ways...keep searching for your way!
I also found reading other posts helped- gives me comfort knowing I don't struggle alone. Take comfort