14 Feb 2020
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Hello. I’ve smoked since high school and am in my later 30s. I’ve been an average to high user, sometimes Chain smoking in certain situations and others average. I had quit completely for about 3 years a few years ago. Forward to summer of 2019 to now, dealing with a new living environment (surrounded by many smokers , meeting a friend with access to cheap smokes) I have actually turned into a pack a day smoker. I am currently not working, home very often, an overall mess and quite literally smoking my life away whilst having coffee mochas & watching YouTube. . I’m very disgusted & ashamed with the whole situation and thought today would be a good day to try. Because the cigarette friend will be around later today, I was going to buy for the week but I really need to reverse this suicidal path and want to not buy them, throw my coffee stuff (I only drink and smoke together, not one without other) and will have to not see my friend too (who is the only close friend I have in my new city!). Please send me prayers, I need them for many things but I feel like the smoking is a beneficial place to start. Thanks!