alikison
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06 May 2018
28 Jun 2018
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lillian, quit coach
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I thought once I was quit for that whole week, that that was it, that I'd be good, be a non-smoker, thought I'd be happy, and feel healthier. I'm still having slips here and there, and starting to have more. I think it's my mood, seem depressed, and the fact I've gained what feels like quite a bit of weight even though it's only about 10 lbs. I am eating Doritos and Chocolate each night after work. Or I'm eating the Tim Bits at work, and after. I did cut up veggies and make dip, but it's just sitting there rotting again. I am trying to drink some decaf green tea when I get home, I'm brewing it then putting it in the fridge for something cold after work, I used to have a beer or two, but shouldn't really be doing that anymore either. Also it's hard to be out with the neighbours/friends out front of the building, hanging out, and to not have one. I've stopped buying them, but I'm bumming them off them, and I want to visit, and hang out in the sun too. I shouldn't have to avoid them altogether. I haven't been using any NRT anymore, and I don't want to. I don't want to use the lozenge or gum anymore, and I don't want to go back on the patch. I've been off the patch since June 7, was on it since May 5th. I quit for a whole week June 1 to 7th, slipped up June 9th when out for drinks, felt sick from the smoke, and thought yup that's it I'm done, and I was for a bit. Until about June 17th. I guess June 1 to the 7th I was really focused on the Quit Contest, so that was incentive, it was hard but I did it, and I did have to use the gum and lozenge, so maybe I'm just being stubborn, and causing myself more misery? I also stopped logging if I had a smoke or not, maybe need to do that again to see how many I am having, and when, and why? I'm also a Type 1 Diabetic which is part of why I wanted to quit. I was hoping to feel better, happier, and healthier, but I'm not. From what I understood smoking causes insulin resistance, so I was hoping to see better sugar levels, but not so much because now I'm eating all the crap, where as before I'd be smoking I guess. Okay ramble done, going back to bed, I'm tired.