01 Dec 2017
08 Dec 2017
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Let me start by saying that the following is about my own experience and not presented as a judgement of anyone else’s journey.
Why did I smoke? Over twenty five years ago I was diagnosed with a “progressive and degenerative” genetic disorder which crippled me for years afterwards. It was a real shock to me because I had been very healthy and health conscious before this happened. So to make a long story short, I got real depressed and decided what the heck, dead man walking anyway, might as well smoke! I also smoked THC for pain and sleep. Then came another diagnostic shock and a different challenge. This reinforced the smoking. This reinforced the need or want to isolate myself further, and smoke!
Well guess what? By God’s good graces my illness subsided and my path became less burdened, but still, I smoked!
I smoked as a smoke screen between me and those who loved me, and whom I loved.
I smoked because I was not worth of love, or life, and did not appreciate the gift that I had been given, and smoked out of spite.
i smoked as a form of giving up, copping out, and just plain being a donkey by another name.
i smoked because I did not forgive the God that put these challenges in front of me in the first place.
Well just over a month ago, I stopped smoking.
I stopped because I AM WORTH IT! I am going to be vulnerable and accepting of those who love me.
I has a choice to live this life without passively trying to kill myself at the same time.
I forgive my god and see that overcoming these past challenges have made me stronger and allowed me to see the depth of strength I have to stay smoke free.
I say all this because, all of us here have our story, and I am betting that a lot of our stories are similar.
I am also saying that YOU ARE WORTH IT! Change your mind and breath fresh air!
No matter how hard it seems, the journey with be worth it. Even if you seem to falter at first, there is no such thing as failure! You always successfully achieve an outcome. It may not be the one you planned on at first, but you will learn from that outcome to refocus and do I think again with your aim adjusted.
quittinng smoking has been on my mind for years, but I didn’t set a quit date. I simply surrendered to the facts and the reality that smoking was me being selfish and self abusive and that was just not how I wanted to live anymore. Period. Full stop 🛑!
I know you have it in you, to do whatever it takes to be smoke free.
My favorite mantra is “What would I do if I could?”. This is in reference to me saying “I can’t quit”. “What would I do if I could?”. Say it out load, say it to yourself, say it often. The answer will be self evident soon enough!
Last modified on 08 Dec 2017 00:12 by ccwhale