02 Oct 2019
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hi grannef. thanks for chiming in. still thinking about smoking. yeah, that is frustrating. i do find i am not thinking about it every minute of every day. but the exhaustion is debilitating. i also find it hard because friends and work colleagues who were so supportive in the first few weeks are now starting to develop an attitude of "well you're over it now, time to move on."
but i am remaining smokefree. 9 weeks grannef! that is awesome!
justfortoday is right. we support you. we are all supporting each other, and together, we will overcome this. cause it it is worth it. whatever reasons any of us have for quitting, it is worth it.
for me, after living a life on the fringes of society and being a marginalized person for most of my adult life, i finally have decent employment, with decent income and pension plan, so i have reason to want to live. i want to live long enough to enjoy retirement. i also want to give myself a chance to be healthy enough to really enjoy retirement.
my blood pressure was an issue at my last medical checkup.
since quitting, it is returning to normal. (in spite of the weight gain). so i do feel like the health is improving.
also, even though i did not get laundry done this weekend, and i had to wear my 'cleanest dirty shirt' to work, i had a colleague tell me that i still smell better in my cleanest dirty shirt than when i was smoking.
so there other benefits to this as well. it has been a rollercoaster ride and i am sure that will continue, but i pledge to stay strong and not smoke for another day. with support and encouragement from others here, i know this to be possible.