12 Jul 2018
12 Jul 2018
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This is my first day back to SHO, but I am no stranger to this site, I have been around SHO for around twenty years, I have struggled time and time again with staying smoke free, the longest I ever got was almost 8 years, I am not going to dwell on the past, it is gone, forever gone, instead I want to reflect on why I started smoking again, and what I am going to do to stay away from that dirty little demon. Each and every time I started back to smoking was because of my arrogance and pride in thinking that I had this addiction conquered, I got tired of my quit, in the back of my mind I missed it, I use to love having a smoke first thing in the morning and after meals, this time when I quit I vowed that there was nothing going to stand in my way, the reason I failed was because I allow my weight to become a big issue,I think that this is a issue for every single person that makes a decision to put down the smokes for good and it will eventually effect every single person that makes a decision to put down the cigarettes for good.
Next to quitting weight gain is the second hardest thing to control every single time I quit weight gain has been a contributing factor as to why I started again. When I quit this time I made a decision that my weight was not going to be an issue. Weight gain is a pretty sensitive issue to me, mainly because I have had an awful time with it, that, I am in a wheelchair today because of my knees, both of my knees have been replaced, the doctors say that my weight has something to do with it, that and the fact that I am diabetic. I was already allot heavier then I quit this time, 4 months have gone by pretty quick, at this point I don't know if ive lost or gained weight, but i really don't care, there will be time to lose weight once I feel confident with my quit again. This time I wanted to choose a quit date that meant something to me, so I quit on my birthday, May 4 2018, I figure it will last longer, the real cool part is that my sister quit 2 weeks before me, so I have an accountability partner, I love it, I look so forward to getting to know you guys, I guess you could say that your the next generation of quitters, blessings everyony
Last modified on 12 Jul 2018 19:26 by smitty