29 Nov 2017
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Yay, I've gone a week! And I'm over today's hump. Ihave a few things that I planned well for, some I didn't anticipate, and trying out new things. The first was my food plan worked and helped so much. I picked up some frozen meals for the days where I skipped lunch and came home starving but tired, so they were easy to microwave and fast. Then I made sure I didn't skip my lunch and brought a grocery bag of raw veggies, cheese , dip and a loaf of French bread which I continued to eat all week, lol! I was very lethargic by Friday, so I had no motivation to cook and was glad I had frozen fish etc ... on hand.
The lethargy is real, folks. So is feeling flat and a lack of affect (mood). It got worse as the week went by and today I had it until about an hour ago. But I kept getting up every hour to do one or two things, like laundry, dishwasher, etc.. I was so sleepy, I tried walking the dog, stretching, eucalyptus oil, coffee, food, but nothing releived the depletion. So I read, so glad that I can focus on reading!!! I finally made another strong coffee about an hour ago and it helped so much. I know I'm over the hump and I'm going out for a bit tonight.
My mouth was so bored today. I've never had that before. But I needed to suck on ice water, park a nicarette gum, use a bit of inhaler, and open the windows to have my mouth feel sensory stimulation. Weird, eh? I even had to eat a spoonful of Salsa.
My sleep is iffy. I was wakeful all night and slept in 45 minute chunks. I finally got up at 4AM and haven't napped so I can sleep soundly tonight. But I did steal my daughters diffuser/white noise machine and was so relaxed as I read for a few hours.Remember when I first started cutting down with the main reason to quit for financial reasons. It changed. I would love to be saving money, but I really need the Patch and other supplemental NRT, so I'll be spending more for the next while. But I don't mind so much anymore because I tried it the other way and I could only get down to 11/25 cigarettes a day, and it was hard to keep it that low or go lower on any given day.
My fight has been withdrawal as opposed to intense, desperate craves. So I can deal with that. Someone said smoking cigarettes is like free-basing, whereas NRT is so much lower and doesn't give you the high. I really beleive it and feel it, lol!!
Congrats on your fight, warriors. We can do it, stay as positive as you can but don't fake it either. I'm only posting this now because I was struggling most of the day but feel like a win at present. I can make it through the night, yahoo!