29 Nov 2017
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You are so right. There is much less stress when you are a non-smoker.
When I was a smoker, I ALWAYS bought cartons, because I could not bear the thought of ever running low. In fact, it made me uncomfortable if I happened to open my last pack without my next carton in tow. Pathetic, eh?
Having said that, smoking caused me plenty of stress. No matter where I went, my first thought was, "Where and when can I smoke? Will there be other smokers there? Will I have to wait until I get home before lighting up?" I am ashamed to admit this, but when I had dinner with family or friends, I sometimes tuned out of the conversation because I could feel the cravings coming on, and all I could think was, "How can I get away to have a cigarette?" When I travelled, I stressed like mad about going to the airport, because I knew that once past security, I could not smoke again. It really caused me a lot of anxiety. When meeting new people, I would wonder, "Can we have a smoke together, or is he or she going to shun me for being a smoker?" I worried about having bad breath, about my clothes smelling of smoke, or whether people would notice my nicotine stained fingers. And the list goes on.
Now, I don't have to worry about any of that stuff. All of that stress and anxiety is gone. And it has been replaced by feelings of accomplishment and self-worth. I wouldn't give that up for anything.